I want the connection. -Meg Schaab, Actress/BallBuster

Do what you love and pay the price. -DW Brown, Meisner coach. “What are you pretending not to know?” -Ryan Basham, LifeCoach “Fuck em. I want the connection.” -Meg Schaab, Actress/BallBuster I was told to write about the above. My RedLipstick Thoughts on Anger. What am I angry about? Money I work hard, scratch and scrape to make bills, spend everything on my acting and I am broke. Money has never meant much to me but I am angry that I’m one bad break of a bone or illness away from having to go home. Especially when I. Work. So. Hard. It’s hard when you don’t have much to show for it financially. Relationships I am lonely. I work to put money into my career and bills that I don’t have much of a life. Scratch that. I don’t have a life. No dates. I am super bad at socializing with ‘the gentlemen’ in general. I think even if I DID have a life I’d probably still miss my mark on that. Something to work on. And I miss B. Kids/Family I want children. I want a flock of them. Adopt. Naturally. I want a family. But not like this. Not a waitress living in a studio, broke, and alone. I won’t raise my children in LA. Walls Apparently I got a lot of them. Mainly about failing. I’m not afraid of success. People with real walls never realize it I guess. Someone has to put a mirror in front of their face so they can see the concrete. The Game Game playing. Game playing the business. Game playing in LA. Real feelings-emotions-letting yourself be a fool. I can do that. No shame in my game. But game playing in networking, it’s needed. It’s always present. It’s always something I hate. I don’t want to live my life game playing. People won’t genuinely connect to game playing. I want the connection. Acting The one thing I am not angry about. The only thing at this point. I am a damn good actress. I work hard. I am talented. I push boundaries. I am not afraid to take chances. I want it to count. I want the connection.