Tuesday, November 27, 2012

The Foundation Room

I did not 'tier jump' in my career like I wanted, I certaintly did not put any money in the bank, and I'm still single. Three things I genuinely wanted to change about myself this year.

And I failed.

But with failure comes the universe. Life had a different plan, a better one.

My foundation was cemented this year.

My foundation in myself, my core, my beliefs, my goals, my expectations, are rock solid. Nothing can shake them.

I studied meisner, I took crazy bold chances in my acting, I workshoped, spent every hard earned penny on acting, I have been shameless, I've spiraled, I've regained control, and I have opened my heart up and have become an incredibly vunerable, inspiring-believer of my future and myself.

In "failing" all three of my goals this year I feel stronger than ever. Sure I have mopey days when I want to just hide under the covers and let the industry (and my dream man) come to me (cause it works like that, right? haha) but the moment passes because THE FOUNDATION IS SET.

I am so selfish right now but no longer closed off.

2013 is about growing, building, and stylizing my dream life.

XXOOXXO
RedLipstickLA

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

REHAB IS DONE!!!

Sacrifice. My middle name.

I don't let myself have too many grumpy downer moments. There are too many blessings but no one is perfect. No one can believe in themselves 365 days a year. I definetely have days when I think "fuck. I should just move to NYC or San Fran or Italy... or just back to CLE. I should just keep it simple."

The moments always gone faster than I can think of what I would actually DO if I ever quit acting. I keep my heart open to what my path is... because you just never know.

What I do know is that I'm a leader. I inspire people. I am a WARRIOR who SACRIFICES and takes chances. I am bold. I am fearless. And I'm arrogant as fuck... but with a heart. Muwah!

I'm not a total machine... but I want the top spot. I have the sacrifice in my heart and soul to get it.

WORKAHOLICS REHAB IS DONE!!!

I am 'living for me' but with a work 'smarter not harder.' Still a work in progress but I am on my way...

XOXOXOXO
RLG

Monday, November 12, 2012

Day28 Ya gotta BELIEVE.

I believe..

Bugs Bunny is forever and always the best cartoon.

tennis shoes are for the gym and boots for da' terrain: EVERY GAL (and most transgendered) should wear HEELS.

people with dementia may be losing their minds, but it's ok because their memories live in their hearts... and thats where counts the most.

"the best" are always "a mess." So don't tell me to iron my shirt.

people who commit suicide go to heaven (not hell). God does not abandon us in our darkest hour.

in plastic surgery.

writing letters by hand is sexier than any text, facebook message, or email.

mad-for-it make a fool out of yourself, nothing is off limits PDA PDA PDA kind of love is for EVERYONE.

in forgiveness... but not forgetness.

in recyclying... but I still take hour long showers.

in my drive, strength, and persistence will pay off.

BELIEVE MY LOVES.

XXOOxOxXOOoo,
RedLipstickGal

Saturday, November 10, 2012

Holiday spirit.

I am gung ho on the holidays this year (pictures to come)!

Trees, cards, ornaments, lights, and OLD HOLLYWOOD! HOlidaY BeLiEVing!!

Holiday spirit is 'living for me' and 'bringing the sexy back.' It's believing.

I chose a few weeks ago to live like a working actress. Why not? I don't spend like I'm a working actress but I believe it's all happening, it's on it's way! Wardrobe, hair, nails, apartment, gym, car (that one's for Liz), and being out and about!!

I want to be REDLICIOUS READY on the day I sign my working actress contracts!!

It doesn't have to be the HoOLLidaYS to BeLlLiIeeEEVe!!!

Wednesday, November 7, 2012

DAY22-23 HeartOpen & LOVE BehindMyEyes

I worked on election night.

Two of the MOST POWERFUL MEN sat in my section. The CEO of a MAJOR movie studio and HIS HUSBAND, a President of one of the most A-List elite hotels in LA.

I sat and watched the two of them, barely breathing-or speaking a word-hand in hand, as they watched the election results come in. TWO OF THE MOST POWERFUL/RICH MEN WHO ARE TERRIFIED SOMEONE WILL TAKE AWAY THEIR LIFE... THEIR HAPPINESS.

One man has changed the history and inspired an ENTIRE WORLD with movies, scripts, and stars. The other has created an entire empire with his professionalism, class, and brains. And they sat their terrified it would be taken away. THIS HAS GOT TO STOP.

I believe in LGBT rights.

Human rights are EVERYTHING to me. I could never support ANY PERSON, even my dearest friends who believe the LGBT community are second class citizens.

I have hope. Something better is coming for ALL OF US.

Keep your heart open. And love behind your eyes.

XXOOxO
RedLipstickGal

Monday, November 5, 2012

Day 21. Not, My. Day.

Whatever you believe. Or don't... I believe that God, the universe, mother earth, guardian angels - got my back.

It's funny and annoying as hell how life will test your beliefs. What I put out into the universe I am ALWAYS tested on. How much do I believe in what I'm going for? I'll be tested...

Love, career, and always the inner workings I say I'm want to change in myself. TESTED.

Ohhhhh the universe shall test you.

I hate it. Hahahahahaha.

It's so much easier said that done to keep going when you are going after your dreams. Clearly this post is me having a rough few days. I am working my ass off. The real living for me comes in the TRUST. This is the hardest part of my workaholics rehab. Trusting all of my sacrifice, hard work, and beliefs are being looked after - somebodys got my back.

XoXXooOO
RedLipstickGal

Thursday, November 1, 2012

Life goes where SHE goes. WorkaholicsRehab Day17-20

I trust.

My talent will meet THE opportunity.

When I can't afford acting class I watch Old Hollywood Movies on Netflix. There is still to this day no acting better than old hollywood. DRAMA!! Love.Love.Love the suttlety...

When I can't afford groceries I eat brussel sprouts and sip red wine. Glam starving actress... ALWAYS glam.

I believe in putting not only my love but my money into my career. And happiness into my life.

I trust.

The workaholic is slipping away... Trust is harder than it looks. But I trust.

Happiness isn't lazy and it's not irresponsible. I trust.

No big whoops. Happiness behind my eyes.