Who do YOU look to?

I've always been RedLipstickLA. Ever since I was a young RLBaby. When you are brave enough to let others see you and your triumphs and your mistakes... they begin to look to you. Ask you questions... advice...guidance.

So who do I LOOK TO when I have no clue? I keep my sights huge. Female media moguls, fallen and risen again girls, unique monsters are my inspiration. Girls who lost it all, sacrificed it all, ran themselves ragged, believed in God, believed in love, lost that love, and kept believing. Stayed professional through and through.

I believe. Even when I don't. I look within.

trust. trust. trust...

Getting Clean.

I'm about to embark on a 21 day cleanse created by Dr. Alejandro Junger (with Amely Greeven).

Overall, I'm pretty healthy. I don't eat poorly, I workout often... so it's not about the 'actual cleanse' Or for weight reasons.

My intentions for this cleanse are:

Mental clarity.
I live for creating comedy and overcoming the challenges that exist jumping tier to tier. This past year has been the toughest thus far in my career. My goals of booking a costar/guest star, auditioning, and signing with a strong agent have been.. well.. a struggle would be putting it kindly. It's fucking hard. All I can do is keep moving forward, making bold choices, and get myself in the best place mentally so when my dreams start coming true, I'll be a total powerhouse. Amen.

Mood
Maybe it's the paragraph above, or always being on point, but my mood is TIGHT lately. I want to just have a relaxed mood. Not manic.

Inspiration.Patience.Happiness
All three link hand in hand. All are strongest when mood and mental clarity are in sync. All three are so much more.

The goals and dreams I'm striving for are giving me a run for my money. If I'm going to beat the odds I better be at 1000% monster powerhouse. Choosing me. Getting Clean.

I'll be posting my journey on and off over the next 30 days. SEND GOOD VIBES! XOXOXO

-Red.Lipstick.Meg

My dentist loves me. And other anxious tales...

I can't just sit and watch a movie. I go all in. They cry. I cry. They laugh. I crack up. I love them. I love movies and characters and good writing and comedies and storytelling. I love seeing someone put themselves on the line. I love the movers and the shakers.

I'm the same with my work. I can't put out crap. Or half ass things... It drives me nuts sometimes.

The past 8 months have been insane. I find myself waking up in the middle of the night tense and clenching my jaw/grinding my teeth. My dentist is in love with me for all the work I'm throwing her way. (Haha.) This is all part of it. Next level. Movers and shakers. Lack of sleep, working harder than you ever thought you could, not holding grudges, (Side note: why is not holding a grudge always the hardest for me? Haha) putting all of your heart and soul and ego and talent into your work for all to see and love.. and hate... and hopefully inspire.

I sometimes wonder if God just doesn't think I'm ready yet. I've been working for so long. Maybe I'm not ready yet. I'm still single. I'm still a waitress. The little voice inside of me saying "just hold on" "just keep going." So I do. Out webseries is gaining momentum. Can't wait to keep filming. Staying grounded in my comedy and not tooooo diva is important. Good thing too, cause basically everytime I get an inclination of "holy shit, i'm hilarious!" the little humble thumble man on my shoulder kicks me in the head. It's all part of it though...

I am a mover and a shaker. I can feel it.

Check out the pilot episode below!!! Thank you all for your love and support!!!

http://www.indiegogo.com/projects/your-server-is-not-out-to-get-you/x/3302212

XOXOXOX,
RedLipstickGal

You Reject.

Taking everything in my life to the next level. I'm banging out the hottest bod I've ever had, seeking out a strong team, and owning up to the fact that, yes, I am a killer actress- it's kinda the only thing I'm ruuurrrrrllly good at in life.

Jealous of my awesomeness? Don't be. All this comes with rejection. Darkest before dawn right? Here's hoping.

When you put yourself out into the world 100% all areas of you are exposed. Those areas are;

Personally: dating, weight, looks, vulerabilities (see all things written above), and goals.

Professionally: career, waitressing, finacial insecurities, studies, headshots, etc.

NO ONE IS LIFE IS SUCCESSFUL ALL THE FREAKING TIME.

That being said rejection, personally and professionally, is a hot topic in my life I am working through... and by working through I mean crying in between personal training sessions (http://www.crunch.com/) at the gym and pondering-agitated about 'where the hell is my life really going' while reading my DW Browns book, "You Can Act!" Sad and lame? Probably. But I'd like to think of it as all one big romantic crescendo leading up to the big bang of my amazing love-marriage-emmy winning actress kind of life.

Once again. Here's hoping.

XOXOXOX
RedLipstickGal
(The Reject)


PS Check out DW's book... it's super hard and makes you hate acting, but by the end you love it again. (Spoiler alert)
Fucking genius.

http://www.amazon.com/You-Can-Act-Complete-Actors/dp/1932907564

NextLevelLiving

Since December I have been embarking on a "non-hooey" NextLevelLiving life change. I say "non hooey" because I'm not finding myself, or doing damn yoga, or eating organic.

I just decided "well, why the fuck not me? I totally deserve this..." and have been going for it since.

The "It" being;
...best body by 30
...big girl apartment
...bringing sexy back
...doing GREAT work, whatever the cost.


I am share my journey daily over the next 5 weeks because the final 20% of my majjjaaayyy goals is always the hardest for me. Fear of success? Probably.. but this is NEXT LEVEL LIVING. There is ONLY success.

Thank you in advance for joining me. Please take in or leave out what you are inspired (or infuriated) by and I hope it helps you live you NextLevel.

XOXOXOX
RedLipstickGal

LA. PUKE.

LA doesn't make me puke... but I sit in chills, with a not so friendly food born illness, celebrating my 2nd year since moving to LA.  Not quite the idea I had in mind This is the FIRST time I've ever called off work.

Nothing makes you start judging errrr- reevaluating your life more then when you are sick.. sick and single? Well just throw me a noose and a old spooky tree why dontcha!

It's my 2nd year living in LA and going after my dream of becoming a working actress. I've discovered so much about myself that I like as well as don't like. I've expanded my goals and am working harder than I ever thought I could. The road is very very... very... long. I pray to start seeing some results; a co star, a guest star, sign with an agent...

My mom gave me a blessing in disquise for Easter, a book. Sherly Sandbergs "Lean In" challenges females and males alike to set themselves apart with personality and hard ass work. A chaper in her book asks readers to create a year & 6 month list of goals... Since i'm sitting here sick - judging myself where i'm going

*Follow her on twitter. She's inspiring as hell!
  https://twitter.com/sherylsandberg

ON THE WAY TO 3

6 Month Goals:
   Get into a new acting class.
   Spin class weekly
   Pitch 'Your Server Series'
   New headshots
   WEEKLY RedLipstick Video blogs
   Work on my Italian

1 Year Goals:
    Sign with Agent/Manager
    Incorporate RLLA (?)
    Pitch RLLA

Best of luck with all your goals and dreams warriors!

XOXOXOX
RLG

Oprah & Me.

It's even happened to the mighty Oprah...

“One if the hardest things in life to learn are which bridges to cross and which bridges to burn.”  -Oprah
The rise to the top is going to be filled with haters. Negaters. Ripoff artists. Backstabbers. Naysayers. And just plain ol' fools. These people you can see coming a mile away. No big whoops.

But sometimes, on the way to the top, people (friends, associates, family) will "just turn." Maybe it's jealously, maybe they just don't have their shit together, maybe they aren't used to seeing you take such a strong and acommplished stance in your life- and they don't know how to handle it. Maybe it's resentment...

Burning bridges 101... they will happen on the way to the top.
(It's how you handle the burn that counts.)

I had to burn a bridge today. I can report that I stayed classy, honest, but firm. AND BOY WAS IT HARD! Sometimes all you want to do is scream "YOU ARE A PHONY BALONEY AND I'M NOT BUYING IT IDIOT!!!" But really... don't hold the hot coal.. it's only burning you.

I hate burning bridges, but in this life, I pride myself on strength, compassion, being incredible self aware, and not afraid to stand up for what I feel is right.

I think as long as I can say "I exhausted every possibility before burning the bridge," well then I've learned something more valuable than any rickedy old bridge that would have stayed in tact with that person.

Maybe that is the ultimate lesson.
Don't mess with TheRed. Haha!

XOXOXOX,
RedLipstickLA

This blog made me SO NERVOUS!!!

I choose to live open and vunerable and strong and go toward my best life possible.

I think half the battle is the "knowing" you are worth it. Worth massive success. Worth being a mom someday. Worth ALL of your dreams, goals, and hopes coming true. 'Drive' comes with a price. But knowing you are WORTH it all, is priceless.

Ok. So, now I KNOW.... time to take the steps that really count.
(Side note: I have been fucking scared and hopeful in these steps)

I stopped taking birth control. I've lost 15lbs. I am bold/fearless in my career. I risk take everyday.

I have given myself full permission to go as hard as I need to go to make my dreams come true. No. Matter. What.

I don't apologize. I don't care if it "freaks" people out. Or men are "weirded out" because I just blogged how I gave up birth control. I turn 30 this year- I'm a 'take it all' gal.

I want my body, my mind, my career to be in the best light when my dreams come to reality.

I believe great things are coming. My heart is open.

I thank everyone for continously embracing my thoughts and following my RedLipstickLife.

XOXOXO
RLG

The Secret to Hollywood

Give yourself permision to go harder than you ever thought you could...

Give yourself permission to just KILL IT.
Sacrifice. Be single. Go hard. Sacrifice even more. Learn. Check your fucking ego.

It's about the hunt. Eat, breath, live... love.... the creation and inspiration.
You want it. You will pay for it. Good and bad. But mostly good.

This WILL be terrifying. This will be amazing. This WILL be everything you could have ever imagined if you let it...

Of all things, keep your heart and soul open to everything and anything that could happen.

Including quitting.

What's the BEST that could happen?

I want to live my best life possible.

This past weekend I attended my friends AMAZING show which discussed each actors "Point of No Return." It was incredible. Each actor was courageous, bold, and laid it all on the line so they, themselves, could 'move forward..' forward in their life, work, dreams, etc... Fan-freaking-tastic.

I can't pick my future or plan it. I want to live it. The best life possible. I am a girl who inspires, and talks a lot, and spells improperly on her blog all too often, and I have a temper, and i'm oddly loyal and love a good underdog.

But it's not about deserving it. I'm earning it. I'm not determined, I'm driven. Resistance and all. Move forward and move on.

I take risks and fail a lot but when I hit - it's hard.

It takes work to earn who you really are. I don't think many people can wrap their mind around a girl like me. I don't think many can keep up. But even if they don't undesrtand, they are ALWAYS inspired. And that's magic. That is MY best life possible. Inspring others- creating magic.

Here is to ALL OF OUR personal 'points of no return...'

What's the BEST that could happen?

DELIVER, No Excuses.

Be professional. Be the problem solver. Be Independent. Be open and soulful.

I strive for all of these amazing-lovely-better than ever-life.

I am a serious actress I strive to inspire. I don't strive to be good. I strive to be GREAT.

The Peoples Actress. And I've hit my stride...

Great means the ups are always way up but the downs are always very down... but I've hit my stride.

Great is, how I feel. I fear no other actor. In fact I can't wait to act alongside anyone and everyone. I can't wait to work and never waitress and live my path. I strive to be an actress who, even if I don't vibe with another actors work, I very hard to not JUDGE them. We are all on our own path. Our own greatness.

Great is, the upmost professional. I listen. I take notes. I work very hard and adjust when needed. I take criticism but I stand strong in my beliefs.

Great is, I DON'T know it all. But I DO take risks and sacrifice. Great is FORGIVENESS. It's swallowing your ego and letting anger go.

Great is peace. Inner-love-forgiving-genuine-bitchy-stubborn-loyal-true peace.

Great means deliver. No excuses.

If ONLY I was great at relationships! I'm working on it. (haha)

I've hit my stride...
I can't wait to show you all the love I feel for my work.

XOXOXOXO
RedLipstickLA

The Girl with the Golden hair.

You can support people but you can't live for people.

This lesson has taken me a lot longer to learn than most.

I love to inspire so it's natural that I want to put my heart and soul into everything, everyone. But you just can't. People aren't bad. They just are not wired to do the same.. and then you are their girl with the golden hair.

People take. And they take. Because that is life. But pretty soon, the girl is left with nothing. and they wonder why so soon after, they too, feel so empty. It's not a coincidence.

People latch onto strenth. People latch on to money. People latch on to hope because so many people are looking for someone to 'save' them.

The girl with the golden hair.

Every man I have ever dated has tried to return to me at some point (even the married ones), every friend who has ever hurt me, every burnt bridge. Because when you are genuinely love and supported- given heart and soul, when it's so uncommon to recieve it, you soon realize life without the golden hair is not enough.

This is my battle. I want to stay open and always give my heart and soul (good and bad), because it's how I'm wired. But I know deep down inside you just can't live for people, they aren't wired that way.