Sunday, October 28, 2012

DAY15-16. Workaholics Rehab *BringingSexyBACK

Year of the 29. Getting back to me. Bringing 'the sexy back!' Workaholics aren't very sexy. Hahaha.

I'm a ball buster. I'm a difficult..in a good way! I'm a diva. I shine and I am not going to let some Beverly Hills jagoff make me feel bad about myself because I'm going for my dreams and waitressing to pay the bills until it happens. Cause it will happen.

I don't want some LA fool just because. Shoot- great idea, let me just lose myself in some man that has a ton of money (or pretends to) only to have him leave me in 10 years for a girl half my age. I'll make my own money AND bring the sexy back! Living for me.

I don't date often but I will say - DAMN... I'm a great girlfriend. It's true. No big whoops.

29 is bringing "the sexy back." This is living for me. Small things like keeping my nails manicured to big things like going on a date and allowing someone to buy me dinner. How hilarious is it that i've taken care of myself for so long that it's actually HARD for me to let someone (even a friend) buy me a drink or dinner. It's disgustingly hard. Anxiety101. But i'm getting better at it.

BRING YOUR SEXY BACK WARRIORS!

XoXXooOO
RedLipstickGal

Friday, October 26, 2012

2 TIPS I LIVE BY. (DAY14)

Over the years I have picked up 2 tips I live by daily;

1. ALWAYS fill in your eyebrows.
2. Never be afraid.

I am not afraid to put myself out there for my career. I make bold choices, I have no shame in my game, I love to talk, live through a scene no matter what the stakes, and I LOVE when people are inspired by me. So I CAN'T be afraid. I owe it to people. It's an honor to connect with people.

Plus the person who gave me this advice is the bravest person I know. My inspiration.

Oh and the eyebrows, my FIRST agent in Chicago took one look at me and said;
"Darling, you 'Got It.' Now lose 15lbs and don't ever leave the house without filling in your brows."

...Hahahaha! What a witch. I love it.

XoXXOOoo
RedLipstickGal

Thursday, October 25, 2012

DAY13. WORKAHOLICS REHAB.

Day 13
"You can't see in others what you don't already have in yourself."-TDL

This plays both ways. Haters and motivators. I have been amazing at changing my thought process and excepting all that my 'non workaholic' life is offering me.

A big part of the workaholics rehab is discovering why I work beyond what is considered 'healthy.'

At day 13 I can finally say why;

Work fills my voids.

The voids of:
- not being a mom yet
- plain old loneliness
- control issues with $$$
(I have to be a breadwinner)

Some people emotionally eat, drink, sleep around, or don't sleep at all to fill voids. I work.

This is so fucking hard to say out-loud... For everyone to see. But I love to inspire through my own triumphs and tragedies. I think as an actress I owe the "openness."

XoxXOXoxo
RedLipstickGal

Tuesday, October 23, 2012

DAY11-13. Claim it.

Side note: Wohoo. I was living so much for me I didn't have time to blog. Taking this 30 day rehab one day at a time.

I don't want to depend on anyone. 100% a control issue-fear I have. No big whoops.

When I meet someone. When I finally settle down I want to be able to offer another person a LIFE. A real life. I don't have that right now. I have my life, which I love because I'm working for something real, I'm sacrificing everything... I will accomplish everything.

LA men and I don't mesh well. I'm not a model, I don't have money, and I DON'T WANT THEIR money. So there isn't too much I can offer. Most days I'm cool with this. I'm mean for reals ya'll, there is some good stuff going on here. (Haha)

My goals are within reach. Living for me. I will accomplish everything.



Saturday, October 20, 2012

DAY10 Me VS. Dirty Dishes.

Side Note: I was challenged to take 30 days and really "live" my life. I am 100% a workaholic and do not want/can't continue to travel down this path. This is my 30 day challenge. Thanks for checking in on my journey....

DAY 10
Balance. I have to work. But the balance is the hard part. I haven't done my dishes in 3 days. I don't think this is what I was 'going for' with workaholics rehab. Do I lack balance? Ok. I am terrible at balance. I am a burn the candle. Not a both ends. Just burn it kind of gal. Because if I don't - I just go bylissfulllll lazy. B-lazy with massive anxiety. Dirty dishes. DDddiiirrtyyyy dishes. They are just freaking sitting there. Hanging out. I can relax. I can 'let go.' I can 'relax.' I can 'date.' I got this. I am basically sittying here laughing at this DAY10 post.

I am so lame.

Holy Gosh I need this woraholics rehab. I need a life...

Tomorrow is my birthday. I wish for balance.

Update: I did my dishes.

XXxxooXOOO,
RedLipstickGal

DAY9. It's Personal AND It's Business.

Nothing personal. It's just business. Yeah fucking right.

"It's personal. And it's business." -My life, Actress/Diva.

I have an addiction for MSNBC 'Locked Up Raw.' The deadliest men on the planet who fear nothing. Men who live to fight. Life in prison- no chance of parol. Human emotion is insane. EACH and EVERY man has something that makes them feel EMBARASSED. It's personal. Teeth, noses, orphaned, grey hair... it's wild. Not afraid to die but bad teeth = mortifying.

It's ALWAYS Personal. I don't trust anyone who plays it too cool, has no secrets, and acts like everything is "always fine." Don't get me wrong, it's not about complaining. (Never complain, never explain.) It's about living. Truthfully.

I believe in sharing my triumps and tragedies because why not? I'm so blessed to be able to do what I do.

"Life is short. People that only think about their career 100% I think, we are lucky to do what we do- "shut it off." -Miley Cyrus

I am so appreciative of all the support I've recieved over my writing and acting throughout the years. Especially this 30 day workaholics challenge. I genuinely love inspiring. By my words. Actions.

That is my biggest reason to live for me - good and the bad. I love and live to inspire.

Thursday, October 18, 2012

DAY8: BRING IT. OWN IT.

Side Note: I was challenged to take 30 days and really "live" my life. I am 100% a workaholic and do not wan't/can't continue to travel down this path. This is my 30 day challenge. Thanks for checking in on my journey....
Oh sweet  mary mother of god today was the little engine that could f-up every which way humanly possible and then break down on the side of the road in the hood... In a hilarious way.

I finally just said "eh, suck it- day", walked around Hollywood, and now I'm watching 'Chelsea Lately' for comedic inspiration. She is a freaking genius and I adore women who own it. Good. Bad. Own it.

I am an "own it" girl. I banter, make fun, but genuinely care about where I go in life.

Getting back to me = laughing more, living me, and just owning it EVEN more. I've lost a lot of "owning it" this past year by being so uber obsessed with work- so I'm getting back to my own it. Cause lordy the 0-Cher and workaholic 'own it' is always there. Not sorry.

TOP 5 'OWN IT' WOMEN
1. Chelsea Handler
2. CoCo (IceTea's wifey)
3. Lady Gaga
4. Oprah
5. Sandra Bullock

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

Day7... ShineOnWarriors.

72 degree - 11pm in October 17th. My big French windows are wide open (sorry i'm not sorry neighbors).

Humphrey and I are watching "Water for Elephants" with a little ol' glass of Syrah.

I LoveLoveLove Fall. It makes me sentimental and loving. It's Ohio.

Choosing 'me' on Day7: I have a wonderful life. I am living my dreams and it's ok to doubt myself sometimes. Whats even more apparaent is my 0-Cher 'Shine.'
(Oh for those of you who aren't regular Meg-lovahs... Yeah, I can diva with the best of em. Ha!)

I SHINE. And I'm not sorry.

Why not? Freaking be amazing. Shine. Be a glam. Be a godess. Be scared. Wear a 4 inch heels to Trader Joes.

Be ok to never look back.

It's ok to have haters. It's ok to let yourself SHINE.

I don't see the point with the way our economy, world, or even the incredible love that beats in my fellow warriors hearts to not do anything but shine.

Shine on my fellow warriors.

xOXOOOxo
RedLipstickGal

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

DAY6. Am I kidding myself?

Side Note: I was challenged to take 30 days and really "live" my life. I am 100% a workaholic and do not wan't/can't continue to travel down this path. This is my 30 day challenge. Thanks for checking in on my journey....

Living for 'me' means being able to look myself in the mirror and know I'm on my own path. I didn't sleep last night. All the old workaholic tricks started coming out. I'll just send some emails- i'll go through headshots- i'll watch tv- i'll shower- imdb-pro-i'll do anything but just admit that I'm completely sad-jealous-and totally out of order. And it's totally ok.

Reckognize not dwell.

It's not about him. It's about me. 4 years of hardwork, taking chances, and struggling paycheck to paycheck.

It's about fear. Impatience.

The fear controls how much I think i'm kidding myself. 4 years.

My heart knows I'm exactly where I am supposed to be. My heart knows I will be a mom. My heart knows I'm going to make it. My heart knows I am not 'just kidding myself.'

It keeps telling me to push past the fear. That i'm almost there, even though I am so scared that I am kidding myself.

This is the ultimate living for me.

...And it's only DAY6.

Monday, October 15, 2012

Workaholics Rehab ** SET BACK. DAY 5

Like an alcoholic- the universe is going to test your courage and faith. Are you really trying to change? I drown myself in work. Especially when my personal life takes a hit.

It took a hit.

Courage is recognizing that it's ok go be unsure when another is farther in their life than you.... Especially when that 'another' broke your heart.

It's not fair. (Yes. I'm a total child in this statement.)

But it's the living of 'anothers' dream when I'm paycheck to paycheck. Still.

Living for 'me' means having faith. REAL faith in my goals.

Sadness, uncertainty, faith... Top 3 feelings of today.
#Faith #FAITH #Faith.... just keep the faith.

Be at PEACE. DAY 4

Today was a lot more "simple me" decision. Be at peace.

I was told last year by a wonderful casting director, whom I ADORE, that as you grow in your respected field it will bring out the best and worst in people around you. I never understood her statement fully until recentley. Some people I SWORE would be 'in my corner-' are not. On the bright side I have developed some amazing relationships I never saw coming. Supporters, connections, and genuine pals who BELIEVE I have what it takes. I am so blessed.

Letting myself be at HAPPINESS and PEACE over letting those I thought would be "on board" go has been a great move for me.

I couldn't be happier in my life and I am most deffinetely flying above all the drama and right to my goals.

I am thankful I've had some ball buster pals to make me stop to look around more at what a life I have. Triumps and tragedies - I am the RedLipstickGal through and through.

XXOoXO
RedLipstickGal

Saturday, October 13, 2012

Workaholics Rehab. DAY 3

Day 3
Lived the dream.
On set all day shooting and then W Hotel for a 'quick hello' birthday.

Pay me so I don't have to waitress and I'm all set!

When you live the life you know IS COMING it's the greatest feeling in the world... at the the greatest feeling until it happens.

I loved being on set. I love giving every ounce of myself and doing well. I love interracting with cast and crew alike. It's my "living for me" at my best.

Can't wait until it's a daily life.

XOXOX
RedLipstickGal

Friday, October 12, 2012

Workaholics Rehab. DAY 2

I bought myself soup and raw veggies from Whole Foods tonight. I love doing this. I never do it. Not because of the money - it's like $8. Breaking away from the starving artists lifestyle and more into the ENTITLED kind of gal act EVERYDAY in my work.

Why did it go away in my personal life?

I actually felt guilty to do something I wanted to do that wasn't $$ toward acting.

This Workaholics Rehab is deffinetely harder than I expected.

XOXOX,
RedLipstickGal

Workaholics Rehab. DAY 1

SIDE NOTE: I was challegned to take 30 days and really 'live' my life. I am 100% a workaholic and do not want/can't continue to travel down this path. This is my 30day change. Thanks for checking in on the journey!!!

DAY 1:

Today I set myself a goal: drive to Redondo to see a friend. I had planned in my head, not fully grasping the idea of ‘challenge,’ getting down there and leaving within 2-3 hours because I was going to do casting drop offs. Then life happened. 4 hours later, still focused and having fun with my friend, I started feeling anxious and agitated over “still being there.” Holy moly, I’m a full blown addict. First step is admitting.

The feelings stayed with me the entire visit and all of my way back to Hollywood. The office drop offs did not happen. They close at 5pm. However, I recognized my anxiousness and pushed past it to enjoy my time living my life away alongside acting.

Recap: Day 1 - anxious and agitated. Full blown addict.

This challenge is going to be so freaking hard. Warrior up!

XOxOxOO,
RedLipstickGal

Wednesday, October 10, 2012

QUEEN IMPATIENT

I've been working on a 42Day Book a Job challenge class the past 3 weeks. My goal: Book my first co star.

Tonight I volunteered for "Private coaching" that was LIVE for everyone to hear on our class phone call.

It's always uber scary letting people know your fears and hear you receive critique. Rip your chest open and let all of your goals, insecurities, and ideas be seen - and hopefully inspire and help others while its helping you.

My "resistance" is I'm impatient. I want it now and I will work 366 days at 25hours a day until I get it. Queen Impatient.

My 3 critiques:
3. Have more fun. (Not acting related)

2. When I doubt myself. Own it. Because it will pass. Don't judge it.

1. All impatience thoughts I will yell into a closed fist and then throw it over my shoulder.

So now you know. The accountability is out there. Put ya goals out there. Keep the accountability.

Keep going RedLipstick Warriors!!!